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This Is Killing Me

by Dead Rejects

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Hollowed Out 03:34
[Verse 1] Everyday its all the same, we wake up dead and play their game Theres no humanity left to steal we're hollowed out Gathered and lead like sheep to kill ourselves but the dead dont speak Off to school or off to work our souls are lost either way [Pre chorus] Just another day Were hollowed out Its just another day Our souls are lost either way [Chorus] Hey Hey We're hollowing out [Verse 2] It feels like ive gone insane, with the thought of losing everything Friends become enemies to fear, we're hollowed out No one will know your name but who is left to take the blame Off to work or off to war we die the same either way [Bridge] Caught in a loop,or stuck in a trance Hold on to yourself,cause theres no going back Youre giving up, giving in but I wont hollow out Your soul is all they really care about Left for dead and rotting from the inside They paint a pretty picture and feed you all in lies Its on your tv, the films and magazines Its the life we all dream of with no humanity
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[Verse 1] I rose up from the dead 20 something years ago To rot upon this earth, you can say it isnt so Im still searching for something a meaning in this life Something to believe in before I fucking die Give up? HELL NO! All alone I must walk With my dreams in my hand but I aint one to talk Im not sure where to go, or even to begin So Ill write this song to you and pretend I fit in Pretend I fit In Yeah [Chorus] Each day Each night I wonder where I should belong Nothing matters at all when youre turning 20 something Each day each night I wonder if I belong No one cares at all when youre turning 20 something [Post Chorus] Well you know who to call When you just dont care at all We're the same, why cant you see We're all part of this pathetic disease Life is catching Up Am I giving up? Sometimes you need a slap in the face To remind yourself of all your stupid mistakes I cant, I wont, I cope, I lie I laugh, I smile, I breathe, I cry I cant, I wont, I hope, I die We live, we learn, but not all survive [Verse 2 JAY] Toward the end of my 20's I've got nothing to show, but this debt that has been collected and the stories we've wrote. All of the dreams that I once had are now a thing of the past, and these scars are the reminder of the journey we've had. So where am I to go. Another disappointment down this dark and lonely road. We're running out of gas and my pockets are wearing thin, from this path we have chosen there's no way we can win. Yea yea yea!
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Dead Already 02:44
[Verse 1] Can you feel it in the air? Its thats time again these walls these walls these walls are closing in Do you think we'll live to see tomorrow So tie the ends and burn your bridges down Its just my way of keeping you around So tell me friend, do you wanna see tomorrow? Cause I dont [Chorus] Give me your best shot Im dead already [Post Chrous] So once more with feeling This is my last try at dealing So once more with feeling This is my last try to get myself away from you Its the least that I can do [Verse 2] I dont feel thing I dont think I ever did And so it goes a tale of the dead Do you think we should live to see tomorrow? tear the seams and watch our friendships die Its just my way of keeping us alive So tell me friend, do you wanna see tomorrow? Cause I dont [Bridge] Im so sorry it had to end like this But these walking bones will never find true bliss You can stick with me [But ill only bring you down] I need you now but I cant have you around I need you now I needed you then Ill need you forever and always till the end But I cant have you around
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Dying Days 04:25
[Verse 1] Just one more song To end the night, Im kinda fucked up My vision is a blur my speech is kinda slurred Im living on the edge the corner at the bar My friends are all here but my mind is so far away From everything I need but what I want is still just killing me Or maybe im still just killing time Cause at the end of day we all just wanna die These dying days Are here to stay [Chorus] Welcome to hell I want you to stay Spending our days Just rotting away Im not crazy Im just bored And a little lost But you've heard this before [Post Chrous] Dont be surprised If im lost at your door Or a call in the night Begging for more These dying days Theyre here to stay These dying days Are eating me away If you wanna fuck with me Get used to misery Cause we're all just down and out Thats what these days are all about [Verse 2] Just one more drink To forget the night, cause im a fuck up When will I ever learn, will I ever get my turn? My chance to live a different life Where I stab myself in the back and I wont ask why Dead or dying its all the same you see So I pour myself a drink but dont you pity me We're all just trying to kill some time Cause at the end of the day we all just wanna die [Outro] Could you get used to this? Its miserable old me These dying days are here to stay I could use some company
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[Verse 1] Im stuck here at the punk rock show and everybody is ready to go. Who's got the tallest hawk the most studs pinned to their belt? Punk rock is stupid i think this scene is dead to me. I guess im just not punk enough cause my parents get along with me. We all pretend that this thing called "punk" is still about unity. Its the same ones who preach this shit who think they're too fucking cool for me [Chorus] Punk rock is stupid. [Verse 2] Listen up this dying scene is just one big fucking joke. Contradicting what you say by the cards that you've all dealt. Throwing up words your favorite bands all call disease Its so sad in all the worst ways, its one big hypocrisy Punk rock is stupid its become so clear to see. We've become the world we hate and its such a tragedy. [Outro] This scene has become a circle of fools Young stupid tools its just like highschool No one gives a shit about the music or the scene All they want to do is prove that they're more punk than me Youve killed this for us, what happened to you? Gone and ruined the one thing I thought would stay true After all this time, it's ironic to see That we're the cops and hypocrites we said we'd never be
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Bury Me 02:06
[Verse 1] Its almost 4am as I stumble through the door So I eat some fucking pizza I got the night before With a blunt in my hand and guitar by my side You're the only thing missing to round out the night Excuse me if I sound pathetic just hear me out you wont regret it Life alone is no fun you see so join the dead and bury me [Chorus] Bury me x3 [Verse 2] Its almost 5am and Im not still not asleep So I smoke another bowl and try to count some sheep But you're the only thing I still got on my mind Its the same old fucking song time after time Excuse me if I sound pathetic just hear me out you wont regret it Life alone is no fun you see so join the dead and bury me Excuse me if I sound pathetic, just hear me out you wont regret it Life alone is no fun you see, so join the dead and bury me
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[Verse 1] Off we go no need for directions Bad luck will follow us But tonight no one dies alone Fuck this city come on lets go Just kids (with no control) Just kids (nowhere to go) Just kids (down on hope) We were all just kids with no where to go [Chorus] SOS Kill me now and kill me quick SOS Kill me now and kill me quick [Verse 2] Turn it up its AGT Im too fucked up in your backseat No clue where to next? Lets do something we'll all regret Just kids (with no control) Just kids (nowhere to go) Just kids (down on hope) We were all just kids with no where to go [Bridge] But sometimes In the dead of night I just wanna die yeah its true But sometimes In the dead of night I just wanna take a drive with you Take a drive with you Sometimes when you have no place to go You'll head nowhere, any road just to cope Turn up the music to drown out the pain Our hopes and dreams are going right down the drain Just drive all night I dont care where we go I never wanna come back home I never wanna come back
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[Verse 1] You better not talk to me till ive had my cup of joe You dont know what it takes and youll never fucking know How hard it is to stand here and pretend I fucking care But when Ive got my coffee at least it helps me bare Ive been up all night And now im stuck at work Please someone just kill me now Or pour another cup. [Chorus] Death before decaf everyday Death before decaf its the only fucking way Death Before decaf [Verse 2] Everyone is my enemy till Ive had my cup of joe If you say just one more word I think I might explode Everyday its getting harder to get my ass on outta bed If I didnt have my coffee I think you'd all be dead Ive been up all night And now im stuck at work please someone just kill me now Or pour another cup. [Outro] I need I want I need Coffee
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[Chorus/Intro] This is Killing me This is killing me This is killing me [Verse 1] Still up at the crack of dawn and ive already hit the snooze You've supplied the rope for me so I guess ill tie the noose We all fall for someone and we're made to believe They're yours till the end but we've all been deceived [Verse 2] That old familiar feeling returns to my chest Love is not enough when youre always second best Tell me you hate me so I cant ignore The bittersweet taste of the past you adore [Bridge] No hope until the end Until their past returns again
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Write On 05:02
[Verse 1] I take the long way home Its The only way I know I feel alone on the busiest avenues I Take out a cigarette To ease my mind I thought told myself that this would be the last time I'd play the fool again, to hate myself again How the fuck is all of this suppose to end Remind me why I never sleep at night We all write on until till everythings alright [Pre Chorus] And when it all just falls apart again Write on, write on write on [Chorus] Say goodbye to me my friends Im locking the door until this ends These 4 walls will be my cage Until the sickness starts to fade From pen to paper, heart to hand No songs enough to understand When it falls apart write on my friend [Post Chorus] (Write on) Write on my friend [Verse 2] I let myself believe That you were done with me Hello again my friend my beautiful agony I Write some lousy songs To pass the time It really sucks when you're stuck on the first line Am I the fool again? I hate myself again. How the fuck is all this supposed to end Remind me why I should get some sleep at night We all write on till everythings alright [Bridge] When it falls apart again Like it always does Write on my friends Write on till the end
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[Verse 1] Its been a couple years since ive seen your face I hope you're doing well Im not sure what else to say I guess we're growing up Or just growing apart I swear I needed all this to get me through the storm I hope you find your answers, I hope you get your turn I had things left to say and now ive said them all Ive got no room left for hate Ive got no room left to fall [Chorus] These songs were my meds, these lyrics my friends This was all just a perfect waste of time in the end These were songs for the dead, I fear this might be the end This was all just a perfect waste of time in the end A perfect waste of time [Verse 2] These memories we make I swear they break like strings And Ive broken so much Each song that I make finds it way to you Now im all outta tune These clouds overhead seem to follow me Each chord that strike a catastrophe Not a thing left to say so should I call this quits Return to the earth where my body sits [Bridge] Rise up Fall back down Its the cycle of the dead I fear that I have nothing left to say i have nothing left to say Can you feel the sadness in your veins? Nows the time to rise up from your grave Can you feel the anger in your veins? Nows the time to rise up from your grave And take my place

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Thank you all for everything, for supporting me from the beginning and keeping me going over the past 2 years. Extra special thanks to everyone who contributed on the Indiegogo campaign to help make this possible. And anyone who has and ever will give this a listen. You guys are the best!

Play It LOUD! - Shane

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released June 23, 2014

Shane Sparacello - Vocals/Guitars
Adam Cichocki - Drums/Bass

Music & Lyrics written by Shane
Recorded/Mixed/Mastered by Adam Cichocki at Timber Studios

Stephen Edwards - Guest Vox on "Punk Rock Is Stupid"
J Of Atrocity Solution - Guest Vox on "Turning 20 Something"
Gang Vocals - Shane, Steve, Doug, Joe

Album Art by Ben Juarez of Misery Art & Design - benjuarez.net

The Friends, Fans, Bands and Contributors who helped make this album possible or have been there for me throughout the years!

Adam Cichocki, Doug McKeon, Nick Maratta, Nick Jorgensen, Krystal Cash, Chris Van Bergen, Brandon Haynes, Tyler Sides, Atrocity Solution, Chet Knebel & Stupid Henchmen, Night Gaunts, Anthony Linardi, Sho Murabayashi, Atsushi Shiotani, Nick Amato, Hiroki Sato, Cody Reed, Tee Jay Begay, Taiki Odagiri, Forbes Side Patio Crew, Tommy Smith, Joe Cassidy, Stephen Edwards, Ben Juarez, Joey Dywer, Chris Keating, and everyone else im fucking forgetting, thank you all!

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